Team Zambia: Meet Sarah

BY 30 HOUR FAMINE TEAM

 

A couple nights ago, I was lying in bed thinking about the Study Tour. My thoughts started off pretty good; I thought about how excited and thankful I am for this opportunity, how cool it is that God is allowing me to serve Him while doing something that I’m passionate about. So far so good, right? But those thoughts didn’t last long. Pretty soon I was thinking about myself, and I started to dwell on the fact that I, Sarah Paul, am one of the 8 kids selected to go on this trip. In a matter of minutes I went from praising and thanking the Lord to focusing on myself and being prideful. By the time I was drifting off to sleep, my ego had grown pretty big. Then something happened.  I felt this soft tugging on my heart and I felt God saying, “Hey Sarah, we need to talk.” My response? “Are you serious?! It’s past midnight and I’m tired. Goodnight!”

 “Sarah….we need to talk.”

“But God-”

“We need to talk.”

“Ugh.  Fine.”

 I got out of my warm cozy bed and got down on my knees. “Okay God, I’m here. Now what?” Complete silence.  And then it hit me. My thoughts while lying in bed didn’t glorify God. I was boasting in myself and taking pride in myself when I didn’t deserve any of the glory. That soon progressed into an hour long time of intense prayer, asking God to be glorified in my life, thanking Him for who He is, asking Him to show me how to give Him the glory He deserves, praying for my family and friends. As I was finishing up my time of prayer, I climbed back into my bed and was once again drifting off to sleep when I felt another tug on my heart.

“Um Sarah, I listened to you as you talked with Me. Now it’s your turn to listen.” This time I couldn’t really argue seeing as I spent the past hour pouring my heart out, not once pausing to listen to Him. I once again got out of my bed and down on my knees. Then I realized something. I’m not a good listener. My mind kept wandering to random things and once or twice I was pretty close to falling asleep.

“God…I’m not really sure how to do this whole ‘listening to You’ thing. Wanna help me out here?”

 “Be still and know that I am God.”

“What? What does that even mean?”

“Be still and know that I am God.”

“How am I supposed to do that?”

“Be still and know that I am God.”

“But- fine. Okay.”

 I closed my eyes and just focused on being still in God’s presence. It was difficult to be still and quiet like that, but it was well worth it. After a few minutes of just meditating on Psalm 46:10, and focusing on who God is and what He has and is doing, something cool happened. All these different pictures flashed through my mind, each one showing a time in my life where God’s been there for me or showed me who He is. They just kept coming, image after image. It was one of the coolest ‘God moments’ I’ve ever had. It was as if with each picture, God was telling me ‘This is who I am and I love you.” In those few moments I felt God’s love for me so powerfully, and it was definitely worth getting out of my warm bed in the middle of the night for.

 God wants us to walk in humility. To give Him the glory. Because honestly, we don’t deserve any of it. But even when we mess up and are ridiculously prideful, He’s more than willing to welcome us back into His arms because He loves us so much. I’m learning that when I feel God tugging at me telling me to do something, it’s best to listen to Him. Whether that be to run into a burning building and save the family goldfish, go up to some strangers and share the gospel with them or even just to climb out of bed in the middle of the night and get down on my knees and talk (and listen!) to Him, I’ve got to do it. 

 God will speak to us if we take the time to listen to Him. I have no idea what it is God wants to say to you, but I can promise you that if you just listen, it will most definitely be worth it.     

“Be still and know that I am God.  I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted among in the earth.”

~Psalm 46:10 

Sarah is one of the students that were selected to go to Zambia this year on the 2012 Study Tour! As you can tell, she has a huge passion for pursuing God, which we love about her. Team Zambia is set to arrive at World Vision Headquarters in just TWO days! Everyone on the Famine team is beyond excited that the time is finally here!